You can't rely on ANYTHING or ANYONE to make you feel alive.
So what am I supposed to rely on? Myself?
I have no trust in myself.
I have no trust in anyone anymore.



But yeah;
Motercycle Driveby - Third Eye Blind.
That's my song.
Listen to it.

Summer time and the wind is blowing, outside in lower chelsea.
And I dont know what Im doing in this city,
The sun is always in my eyes,
It crashes through the windows, and Im sleeping on the couch,
When I came to visit you,
Thats when I knew that I could never have you,
I knew that before you did,
Still Im the one whos stupid
And theres this burning, like theres always been,
Ive never been so alone, and Ive never been so alive.

Visions of you on a motorcycle drive by,
The cigarette ash flies in your eyes, and you dont mind, you smile,
And say the world doesnt fit with you.
I dont believe you, youre so serene.
Careening through the universe, your axis on a tilt, youre guiltless and free,
I hope you take a piece of me with you,
And theres things Id like to do that you dont believe in,
I would like to build something, but youd never see it happen
And theres this burning, like theres always been,
Ive never been so alone, and ive, Ive never been so alive,

And theres this burning, ah ha, there was this burning. aye yie yie

Wheres the soul. I want to know, new york citys evil.
The surface is everything, but I could never do that,
Someone would see through that.
And this is the last time, well be friends again.
And Ill get over you ,youll wonder, who I am.
And theres this burning, just like theres always been,
Ive never been so alone, alone, and ive, and ive, Ive never been so alive, so alive

I go home to the coast. it starts to rain, I paddle out on the water alone,
Taste the salt and taste the pain. Im not thinking of you again,
Summer dies and swells rise, the sun goes down in my eyes, see this rolling wave, darkly coming to take me, home,
And I never been so alone, and Ive never been so alive.

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Mk, my turn.




They say I have this burning in my soul,
But my thoughts are just turning my head.
That's all it ever was.
I see through me.
I see what I am.
The mirror is translucent.
But you have this faith in me,
Faith I'll never own.
I'm just going down.
I take the punches as they roll.
I take them but you never see me fall.
I have so many fears.
The frown on my face is my anesthetic.
The sadder I am, they less I fear.
Nothing can go wrong when you just don't care.
I over think, I talk too fast, I sink.
I laugh too much, I cry too much, I over analyze.
What I've come to fear are your lies.
They said a fire burns inside me,
I hardly feel it anymore.
I wonder if I lost it.
I'm burning down.