I am such a sucker, and I'm always the last to know.
My insides are copper, I'd kill to make them gold.
-"Sending Postcards From a Plane Crash (Wish You Were Here)" by FOB

Lately it's become apparent that my siblings and I don't relate to people as well as most other people. I was wondering if maybe we're aliens, idk. : ) Something is wrong with us, I think what's wrong with us is really right. Because I really wish more people were like my siblings.

I don't understand why people are so mean. What is wrong with teenagers? I know I am one. But I also know I'm not your average catty teenage girl. Not at all. If I told me that, you'd be lying. And it would hurt me.

I want to meet people who will love me like how I love them. Life gets lonely.

I'm trying, I am. I swear to anything. But I can't find what I'm doing wrong. I think I've lost my mind. I feel like I'm trapped inside my head.

I can't get along with people. It. Doesn't. Make. Sense. I'm normally easy to get along with.

I feel like... I lose. Yep. I just lose. Hahah.

I need someone to get me though. I need someone to worry. I need someone to know when I say I'm fine, I'm really really not. I need someone to not let me pretend I'm okay when I'm not. I need someone to tell me it's okay to be weak. Idk why I can't just do that for myself. But I feel like I'm the only one that can.

I feel like writing a poem. BYE.