You don't know how it feels because if you did you wouldn't do it. It's just like behind all the logic I have built up to protect my brain you hit it hard enough to bruise my subconscious and that's when it starts to drip into my heart making it heavy then it spreads all through my head and I try to ignore it but that gives it too much attention and it overwhelms me and starts leaking from my eyes. I wish its escape made it go away but it only starts producing more quickly and my head gets bloated and my lungs feel drownded and my heart is pounding and my logic is completely floated above the surface and I can't reach it anymore. And the only thing that I know is that I've never been so sad, or so alone and helpless. And that I have completely lost my mind and there is nothing you can do to help me but I can't stop begging you anyways..
It hurts. Sometimes it makes me think I'm defective.