Going down.

I haven’t left.

But, my face can’t hold its place in your mind.

Each step I take,

Every proof of my path,

Is being erased before I can look back.

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I’ll keep going with one foot in front of the other

And I never said I wouldn’t leave without a fight.

I’m leaving with this muted scream

I see life moving away from the light

And a lot of things seem a lot colder.

It’s been a long day and it could never be long enough

I’m so silently shaken.

And I can’t stand to lose this touch.

With each minute we take another mile

And with each mile I wait a little while

The more I’m waiting the more I’m losing

And I know I’ve got so much to lose.

My thoughts building up in my head

They erupt in my eyes and spill down my cheeks

Everyday it’s more, the days turn to weeks.

I’ve got more than I would have ever taken.

All these words lie in a pile, forsaken.

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What a way to start out. What a way to begin.
I'm scared. One bad day after another.
I'm depressed.
And I've seen sinking ships go down with more grace than me.
Bah.